“Spring Rose Heart at the Ferry Building Gallery” photo by DS
Artist Unknown
Here are my explorations today:
Dhillon, Kamal. Black and Blue Sari. 2009
559 Words
*** personality mischievous *** survival, spoke up for herself *** protested, wanted to be liked, envied flight attendants, loved the rain *** afraid of frogs and geckos *** homesick, avoided embarrassment *** didn’t want to get married, feared consequences *** disillusioned, courageous, unprepared, notices injustice *** insight *** too tiny to defend herself *** did not gossip *** positive thinking *** uneasiness, often sick, dread, resentment, humiliation, violence *** reached out *** loss of self, innocence, shame, silence *** terror, bargaining, about face, spoke up *** peace, affection, lied about, tolerance, shock *** regret, trapped, controlled *** frustrated, tricked? *** working hard, connecting *** had to get my children, torture *** child invited to discipline, her mother too, shame, hostage, threats *** birth defect, blame, love, does not mention any childbirth pain *** celebration, silence, sadness, comparison, double-standard, tired *** envy, loss of control over infant *** car accident, cruelty, frustrated, despising *** verbal assaults, his pleasant performances, sleep deprivation *** the look of death, deprivation *** seeing stars *** swearing, silent witnesses, secrets, hidden calls *** wanted to leave, charming looks and sweet talk, a good story, parents believed him *** disappointment, suspense, lack of information, began to believe what he said *** called her a bad mom to her child *** child said okay to new mom *** forced to sit in a corner *** watched *** threatened family, hope, dreaming *** working, joy from children *** violence, police *** jail, blame, apology, lies *** not believed, torture, electrocuted *** remembrance of time confused *** accusation, crazy-making *** payback *** not believed, trapped *** suggested suicide for $ *** kids sent away, lawyer, left *** went back *** torture, death free? *** women’s shelter, reconcile *** beatings, harm kids? *** no witnesses, escape, committal *** sedation, hunger, mental hospital *** spoke on her own behalf, escaped, sanctuary *** numbing, name-calling, disrespect, another wife? *** screaming, help *** A light shone over the water. *** ticket for one, children taken away *** I chose to abandon my own children. *** tracked down *** not giving the children phone messages *** yes *** whispers, interrupted by a message from her *** hope, departure, separation,, kindness and testimony *** Jesus *** prayer list *** met husband at airport *** remember *** horror gain, reprieve, return *** believed *** welfare workers were friends of in-laws *** bribed people in high places *** monster in-laws, children screaming *** strengthened her mind *** fantasy life *** gossiping turned against him *** urge to use knife *** kerosene *** others in trauma *** protection, left, hungry, stole *** police *** cut off utilities *** plan *** longed for super powers *** had to fight, sleep outside *** Hannah never spoke out in my defense again. *** yes *** I told them to discipline me *** scars, drugged *** zombie-like, shut down *** charming, silence, worn down, shaking *** support from sister-in-law, not *** women’s shelter, shared suite *** back again to be with kids *** prayer *** left and moved many times with kids *** shelter, respect, church *** friends, Jesus with me *** could not forgive *** law-makers, divorced *** prayer, united with other two kids *** hard to get children, in-laws *** house inspector, adjournments, remember *** betrayed by reporter *** non-payment *** funeral *** Supreme Court *** vengeance not mine ***
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