Indecision, numbers, meaning – many feelings and thoughts rush in when several people cancel from attending a workshop this evening. How many people are enough to go forward with? Should I contact the others to make sure someone will show up and I will not have wasted a long drive there and back? Will I change the program for fewer participants? Who will eat all of the cupcakes I bought for this evening?
I have had a meditative day (praying, crocheting, reading, making meals, listening to a lecture on an mp3) so it is easy for me to slow down. I ask myself one question: Would I drive that far to have coffee with a friend? Only two people will come. If one is a no show (which happens infrequently) I still have one person to share contemplation and collage with. If I phone to see if she is coming, she will likely cancel so I will not have to show up just for her.
I will go and I will trust God to make it worthwhile in God’s own way.